Physical pain is something a good majority of people don’t think about on a regular basis. I find it interesting how our brains change the memory of pain. What would happen if women really did remember the exact pain of childbirth? Time seems to dull the memory of the pain.
I live in constant discomfort. There is not a day that goes by when I don’t feel some kind of mild pain or discomfort in relation to my uterus. Because it is constant, I have become accustomed to it. It’s just there. For the past couple of weeks I have been debating whether or not to go through with my hysterectomy. “It’s not so bad, what’s a little discomfort?” are thoughts that have run through my head. And then it hits. For two weeks out of the month I am in almost unbearable pain. I can hardly walk upright, I can’t focus on anything for more than two minutes, and there is no comfort at all. Right now, I would be willing to take out my own uterus with a rusted razor blade if it would stop this pain.
In a week, though, I’ll be considering not going through with the surgery again. How do I so easily move this pain to the back of my mind?