For me, the summer is quickly coming to a close. In one week, I will be starting school. I don’t ever remember starting school so early when I was young. Of course, when you’re young, your perceptions are often askew. Anyway, I am both sad and happy. Sad because I have thoroughly enjoyed being at home with my children this summer and I am going to miss these wide open days. I’m happy because, well, I’m always a little happy for school to start. I love school supplies and organizing everything for the start of a new school year. And, for the most part, I enjoy my co-workers.
That brings me to my dilemma. I have recently found out that one of my co-workers made a formal complaint and turned in a log of my wereabouts last school year. She made the accusation that I wasn’t doing my job. Now, I knew someone had made a complaint but I didn’t realize there was a log of when I was in my classroom and when I wasn’t. I also wasn’t sure exactly who had made the complaint. I’m not sure how I feel about it now. I was hurt and angry when the principal first told me in the spring, but now, I don’t know. Actually knowing who did it seems trivial.
I have always treated my co-workers with professional courtesy. I may not like a co-worker as a person, but I always give them professional respect. I also may not agree with the way another teacher teaches, but we all have our own style. My way is not the best way. And I also believe in basic human respect. I have not always treated people with kindness, but I try to remember that we’re all human and should at least try to be kind to each other. It seems, however, that there are a number of teachers I am currently teaching with that don’t hold the same philosophy.
I was watching “Big Brother 8” and came to a realization. First let me say that I get hopelessly addicted to television shows, and usually the worst ones. Anyway, I have watched every season of Big Brother and I am always amazed at how ruthless and devious these people can be when playing the game. And every season, it makes me sad to see people act this way. As I watching the other night, I realized that it seems that the people I work with are being the same way. It’s all about who you’re friends with and how your alliances play out.
So, as we hurtle towards the beginning of a new school year, I am torn on how to deal with the situation. Part of me wants to confront the people who seem to enjoy hurting me by starting rumors and attacking me as a person and as a teacher. I want to tell them that I will not stupe to their level and I will always treat them with professional courtesy. I want to tell them that they can’t hurt me anymore because I won’t let them. The other part of me wants to be sickeningly sweet. I want to make them question, in their own minds, why they were so mean to me. I also want to be overly happy, praying that attitude will spread.
I am aware that I sound incredibly naive.